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Thursday, January 13, 2005
come to think of it.. i dont really REGRET dating shawn... i just regret how i acted afterwards, i regret all the crying and pleaded that i did and i regret the loss of our friendship... i dont think i regret dating him, i just hate how things are now.. but i dont know why i care so much...lol
anyways... im in school right now and bored outta my mind... finishing up today, going out with mommy, and then school tomorrow and i get to see my baby!!!!!!!!!
yesterday i went over keri's after school and hung out with her and lauren until i had to go babysit.. thats ok the kids were really good and the baby (2 years old) asked his mom if i could sleep over cause he didnt want me to leave cause im his friend and he loves me.. awwwww.. lol... hanging at keri's was loads of fun eventho certain people didnt show up.. cough cough.. i thought we were all gonna die from laughing so hard...lmao.. lauren's crazy laugh and my pure stupidity and umm.. demonstrations??? lmfao.. its never dull when keri and i are together...
i got in trouble the othe day for the fone bill... cause i decided to call christine down in florida.. for 41 minutes.. which resulted in a $12 phone call.. o well.. i miss her like crazy..but at least she might be able to come visit in may :)
i think im done cause the bell is prolly gonna ring... oh yea!!! im gettin switched outta my english class cause i cant handle it and im failing and so im gettin switched to BASIC college english with ms reinhard... YAY!!!! Bart is gonna be my friend in there..lol.. ok now im really done...
on one last note....
I LOVE JEFFREY MARTIN SOOOOOOO MUCH, AND I FEEL A WAY ABOUT HIM THAST I HAVE NEVER ONCE FELT BEFORE.. HE IS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING AND I HAVE TO BE THE LUCKIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD TO BE ABLE TO CALL HIM MINE AND HAVE HIM TO BELONG TO. I LOVE HIM, AND FOR THE ABSOLUTE FIRST TIME, I CAN SAY IT, AND MEAN IT, KNOWING I WILL ALWAYS FEEL THIS WAY. I HAVE LOVED PEOPLE BEFORE.. BUT FOR THE FIRST TIME...
...I... JESSICA ALICIA RICKER...
... AM HEAD OVER HEALS IN LOVE
LOVE YOU BABY :)
((AND IM IN LOVE WITH KERI ANN TOO, AND I WANT HER IN BED.. OOO BABY))
Posted at 06:33 am by Blondluv130
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Friday, December 31, 2004
well today is new years eve and im sleeping over jeff's tonight with him, keri, dan, maybe jay n maybe mike.. it should be loads of fun, especially playing kings..lol.. but not as fun as when jeff slept over here.. my mom made us sleep in the same bed and then she closed the door.. weird huh? anyways...
ive been thinking a lot lately.. about things that i am done in the past, stupid things.. and i realized that i have made a lot of stupid mistakes.. and there are a lot of things that i regret... for starters.. i completely regret ever dating Shawn.. BIG mistake... not only did it ruin my friendship with him but it ruined my friendship with lisa too.. i mean yea, lisa pisses me off more then anyone else... and i am sooo tired of the stupid ass dirty looks.. i mean.. i made a mistake, every one makes them, so why hold it against me two fucking years later?? but i keep thinking about sophmore year, and lunch with skittles, and just the laughing and goofing off and always having tons of fun... i mean.. sophmore lunch was the best... n i miss the way things used to be.. n i def regret dating shawn.. we were such better friends, then boyfriend/girlfriend... we drove eachother crazy and it was stupid to even do that.. but ive lost those friendships, and there is no way for me to get them back when neither of them miss it, or want it back...
next i regret going out with matt the first day i met him, i didnt have a chance to get to know him, i just liked the fact that someone was interested in me, so i decided to just go for it.. yea me n matt had a lot of fun, but i do wish i got to know him better before dating him..
i also regret the way that i acted after breakups with shawn and matt.. i was so stupid and so immature and its no wonder why shawn hates me and why i drove both of them crazy.. i mean, i was really really bad with that, its actually really embarrasing...
and i regret certain events that occured with mikey.. that was probably one of the stupidest things ever.. probably the biggest regret i have..
there is definetly a long list of regrets that i have.. and unfortunately, i do not have the power to go back in time.. all i can do is learn from those mistakes and grow from it, which i think i have done.. i mean i am still the crazy me, just a bit more mature now, for i have learned a lot..and i think that ive matured a lot through my relationship with jeff.. ive learned a lot about my feelings, and how my actions have conseqences... and that i do have people that care about me and love me and are there for me.. and EVERYONE makes mistakes and EVERYONE has regrets.. its the forgiving, forgetting, learning and growing that makes us who we are....
Posted at 08:11 am by Blondluv130
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Saturday, December 25, 2004
QUESTIONS:
1. What was the hardest subject in high school for you? history
2. Have you ever tried sushi and do you like it? nope.. and not planning on it
3. Did you ever have acne? yea, and i hate it!!!
4. Which show is funnier-That 70s Show or Friends? never watched that 70s show so id have to say friends
5. Did you ever get a makeover? nope
6. How much did your last haircut cost? i dont know
Have you ever...
07. Said "I hope you die" to someone: i dont think so, but ive probably thought it
08. Tried to kill yourself: nope
09. Gotten in a fist fight: only with my brothers
10. Lied to your parents: just little white lies
11. Lied to your friends: not really
12. Bit someone: haha yea ;)
15. Given someone a bruise: probably
17. Cut yourself: not intentionally..lol
18. Skipped school: nope, too scared to...lol
19. Hung up on someone: yea
20. Gone commando: yup yup
21. Thrown up at school: not that i can remember
GIRL TALK
01. Do you stuff your bra? haha... def not.. no need to
02. Have you ever stuffed your bra? nope
03. What make-up do you wear daily? foundation, eyeliner, eyeshadow, mascara
04. What are your underwear like right now? my heart shaped thong ;)
05. How many pairs of shoes do you own? ummm.. 6?? i dont know
06. Come on, tell the truth. Is that really your true hair color? yup yup
07. What do you most like about your body/face? well i dont like my body at all.. the only thing about my face would be my eyes..
08. And least? i dont like my body at all... but i hate my huge boobs
09. How many fillings do you have? none
10. Do you think you're good looking? not at all, eventho i am told often that i am
11. Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking? yes... all the time
12. Do you look like any celebrities? not that im aware of
13. Do you like a man with muscles or not? a little bit of muscels... but not too big.
14. Tall or short men? as long as they are taller then me
15. Does your dream guy have long or short hair? short
16. What's the hair situation 'down there'? none
17. How long is your leg hair? none
18. Ever come close to having sex, but didn't? haha... yea
19. With who? we dont need to go there
20. If so, why didn't you? just didnt want to, didnt have time, etc.
21. Are your eyebrows a different color from your hair? dont think so
22. Do you pluck your eyebrows? i like getting them waxed
23. When did you last have a hickey, and where? ummm... a few weeks ago on my chest
24. Are you on birth control? yes
25. Can you dance? i dont think so, but it can still be fun
26. Can you lick your nipple? haha... yes i can
27. Do you struggle with self-esteem? yes
28. Do you or have you ever had an eating disorder? nope
29. When was your first period? summer after 7th grrade
30. If you unexpectedly got pregnant, what would you do? breakdown and cry to my mommy.
31. Future daughters/sons names? i have no idea...
32. Are you pro-choice? i guess
33. Do your underwear and bras usually match? every once in a good while
THE PAST
01. Any good memories from last year? TONS!!! haha.. keri, dan, jeff, mike, matt, ashley, jay
02. Any bad memories from last year? yea :(
03. Do you regret anything from last year? yes.. but dont need details.. keri n jeff know
04. Do you regret anything you've ever done? DEFINETLY
05. Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? shawn (big regret #1)
06. Did you ever have braces? noppers.
07. What is your best childhood memory? i dont know, i had an amazing childhood
08. Do you have the same friends you did when you were seven and under? just Megan and Josh
09. What color hair did you have as a kid? platinum blond
10. What does your name mean? havent the slightest idear
THE PRESENT
01. Current Music: none- im in school
02. Current CD in player: ---
03. Current conversations: none.. just talked to Megan tho.. and before that, Keri Ann
04. Current time: exactly 9:25
05. Current clothes: jeans... green eeyore shirt, gray zipper top
06. Current hair: down and straightened
07. Current taste: nothing
08. Current mood: hyper.. last day before vacation!!!
09. Current smell: ummm...
10. Current thing you should be doing: absolutely nothing
11. Current desktop picture: me on homecoming looking like im holding a beer
12. Current favorite group: bowling for soup
13. Current book: none
14. Current refreshment: none
15. Current worry: getting everything ready for christmas
16. Current crush: my boyfriend, Jeffrey Martin
Random:
+What's your favorite card game? haha, Kings!!! (Ki Jp Mm Cr Gp)
+ Have you ever paid to see or call a psychic? no... but i thought it'd be funny to get a physchic reading one day... just for shits and giggles.. lol
+ How many times do you pee per day? umm.. never counted. lol
+ Which of the following do you like most: Ski Free, Free Cell, Solitaire, Rattler Race, or that mouse eating cheese game for Windows? Free Cell
+ Pac-Man, Simon, or Frogger? Pac-Man! rock on! lol
+ Fraggle Rock or Muppet Babies? whats Fraggle Rock?
+ Celine Dion or Barbra Streisand? neither
+ farting or queefing during sex? lmao
+ rottweilers or german shepherds? rotties
+ fish or birds? both.. i have both n like both
+ cows or goats? goats
+ Candyland or Operation? candyland (jeff beat me in it )
+ Monopoly or Life? Monopoly.. cause i always win
+ AOL or MSN? aol
+ Easter Bunny or the Tooth Fairy? easter bunny
+ javascript or HTML? HTML
+ drowning or burning to death? both are pretty fuckin scary
+ falling or being shot to death? neither?
+ The Green Mile or Forrest Gump? never seen either
+ The Truman Show or Joe Schmo? never saw either
+ Shrek or Monsters Inc.? SHREK!!!!!
what's better...
tea/coffee/cocoa: cocoa
warm and humid/cool and breezy: cool and breezy
short hair/long hair: long hair (im tryin to grow mine out)
belly button ring/tongue ring: belly button
necklace/earrings/bracelet: earrings
braces/crooked teeth: braces
contact lenses/spectacles: contacts
books/internet/travel: internet
outdoors/indoors: both have their pros and cons
slow dance/fast dance: slow dance =) espceaily with someone you really care about
father/mother: love em both
platforms/flats/stilletos/chunky heels: SNEAKERS!
candy/flowers: can i have both? lol.
drama/fantasy/sci-fi/comedy/horror: comedy - and when the mood is right, horror
serial/movie: movie
ike/tay/zac: huh?
pencil/pen: pen
read/write: umm.. i'd say write
cake/pie/pudding: depends on what flavors... lol
pancakes/waffles/cereal/oatmeal: pancakes or waffles
not bathe/not brush your teeth: thats a toughie
dirty nails/dirty hair: dirty nails
door open/door closed: closed
hair glitter/lip gloss/eyeshadow sparkle: lip gloss
dress/pants and top/skirt and top: pants and top
phone/email/messenger: either.. do em both
overweight/too short: too short, cause short people can be cute Like me n keri
drums/piano/guitar: drums
harmonica/tamborine/shaker: tamborine
loner/mingler: mingler
earthquake/tornado/storm/tsunamis: storm ; sometimes they're fun (or romantic. hehe)
vibration/beep: vibration
laptop/personal computer: computer
glass/mug: glass
candle/artificial lighting: candles. =)
beauty/rich/smart: i'd say, a blance between beauty and smart
radio/tv/video/internet: tv
cash/card: cash
not able to see/not able to walk: not able to walk
natural death/unnatural death: natural
show/comfort: comfort
sweet/salty/sour: sweet
god/devil/free-thinker: free thinker i guess
innovator/follower: follower
no sleep/no food: no food
be told the scary terrible truth and live with it/continue living your perfect 'normal' false existence (eg:matrix): i'd rather know
boyfriend/true friend: when your boyfriend, is also your true friend, there isnt a differance.
work/study: work
fan/air-con/wind: wind
webcam conference/face-to-face: face-to-face
lie/threaten: both are really bad
domineering/submissive: not sure what they mean
polka dots/stripes: stripes. But polka-dots kick ass too, cause they're really goofy.
christina aguilera/britney spears: idk
daisy/rose/orchid/tulip: ROSE
pork/fish/beef/chicken: chicken
juice/pop/shake: pepsi
Dating & Attraction
On what date do you usually do the deed? i dont date.. lol.. umm.. after a reasonable amount of tie
Have you ever fooled around with another woman? noppers
Should you ever give a relationship a second chance? yea, but not more cause then it just fucks with you
Have you ever fooled around with a coworker? never worked..lol
Who ended your last relationship? him, but im glad
Would you ever have a relationship with someone 10 or more years older than you? age is just a number
How long could you abstain from sex or masturbation? well i dont masturbate, sex.. i have no idea
What's your opinion of PDA? nothing wrong with it as long as its not too much. like, no intense making out and crap. but little pecks every so often, are great.
What's the first thing you check out on a guy's body? arms, face
what are his crimes? i dont get it
How did you meet your guy? been good friends for a long time -met through friends
What first attracts you to a guy? appearance. then humor.
What is your ideal seduction date? just being alone with my love, no distractions, and no chance of interuption, just being carefree and doing whatever we want
Have you ever had a workplace romance? noppers.
What's your favorite thing about your guy? wow.. there is like an endless list.. just the fact that i feel completely comfortable with him and i am completely accepted by him.. his sense of humor that can always make me smile no matter what.. his sweet sensitive side that holds me and kisses me and tells me he loves me... he is just the absolute most perfect person in the whole entire world.. and i love the fact that we are also best friends on top of the boyfriend/girlfriend thing.. and the fact that we can have fun sitting n coloring posters or playing cards as anything else :)
Behind Closed Doors
Do you tell your friends the down-and-dirty details about you and your guy in the sac? haha.. yea.. especially to keri
How often do you initiate sex? who... me?? ;)
How do you care for the hair down there? its kinda gross
How much do you tell your friends about your sex life? too much... lol
How long do you like sex to last? o boy... long enough
What kind of sex would you rather have? i want naked sex!!!!
Do you like sex with your eyes open or closed? uhhh.. i think they are usually open? haha i dont remember
How many sexual partners have you had? 3 but only one matters .. love you jeff
How many times a week do you like to have sex? uhhh.,.. wjenever
How many sexual partners is too many? idk
If you've ever faked it, why? never needed to :)
Have you ever lied to a guy about the number of sexual partners you've had? no
What do you wear to bed? sweat pants and a t-shirt
In the Mood
What gets you in the mood? hehe thats for one person to know and no1 to ever find out
What says romance to you? anything from the heart
Is sex better with the lights on or off? idk
What's your favorite time to have sex? idk
Love & Marriage
Do you believe in love at first sight? no, but i do believe in LUST at first sight
Would you rather marry your soulmate or a billionaire? soulmate
How long did it take you to fall in love with your most recent boyfriend? ummmm... i loved him after a month and a half.. but i fell in love with him prolly around 2 and a half months
How important is it that your partner be the same religion as you? not really.. i dont practice my religion all that much so it doesnt matter
Who's the boss? i like to think im the boss.. but i like the guy to wear the pants Which do you think is more important for keeping love alive long-term? trust, honesty, keepin the spark alive.
Ex-Cruciating Situations
Are you friends with your ex? one of em...
Have you ever had sex with an ex? uhhh.. yea.. BIG MISTAKE!!!
You've got it bad for your ex's best friend. Do you act on it? sure
What Would You Do?
Would you let your boyfriend take naked pictures of you? ha.. not the smartest thing to do...
Have you ever been to a strip club? nope
What could you give up for the next five years? idk? If your boyfriend wanted you to have a breast enlargement, would you? NO!!!
How do you feel when men on the street whistle or compliment you? annoying but im glad they think im hot rather then thinking im ugly... but its still embarrasing
What would you do if your guy's art/poem/song sucked? wouldnt say anything
Your boyfriend suggests some role playing and wants to be the pillaging pirate to your saucy wench. What's your reaction? depends on what kinda mood im in.. ill prolly be up for anything
Do you discuss past conquests with your current cutie? when it comes up. yes.
Posted at 07:56 pm by Blondluv130
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Monday, November 29, 2004
its not so bad after all...
you know.. i can bitch and moan all i want about how much my life sucks and how im having such a rough time, but in reality, my life is pretty damn good... yea sometimes i say it sux, but thats just when im in a bad mood or whatever.. but really... i have so much going for me, and so many people there for me, an absolutely amazing boyfriend, fantastic friends and a wonderful family.. what more could anyone want???? i always have people there by my side, always people who care about me.... i must say, i am prolly one of the luckiest girls in the world.
1) i am finally able to get my act together and go to school
2) i managed not to lose any credit in any classes, and i am now doing much better with my grades
3) keri-- someone that i wouldnt be anywhere without.. she has shown me that no matter what, dont worry about what other people want, just smile and have fun, and life will go on.. she has always supported me.. thats prolly why i want her to work so hard so she can graduate.. because i prolly wouldnt be graduating without her loive and support, she never gave up on me, and im never gonna give up on her... we will walk across that stage in june, the both of us
4) an amazing family who has never once turned their back on me.. supporting me through every single thing i did
5) jeff's family.. who have taken me in and accepted me as if i were part of their family
6) an amazing boyfriend, who only wants the best for me, and always pushes me for that best... he is one more person who i wouldnt be anywhere without.. he shows me constant love.. and i am nothing but ecstatic to be known as "jeff's girlfriend" he has shown me so much and i truely love him with all my heart and soul and he too is another person responsible for me being able to walk across that stage in june... i love you baby
7) and the dear dear people who put up with me always and remind me how to smile when all i want to do is crawl up and cry.. to those people.. there is not much i can say to you guys.. just thanks for always being there.. and thanks for being my friend
8) and of course every day things that i unintentionally take advantage of... food, a home, clothes, money, phone, computer, car, tv, indoor plumbing, a shower, etc. etc. etc.
so see.. although i may bitch and moan and complain about stupid shit and how much i may hate my life at that moment, i never really HATE my life.. because my life is amazing... between family, friends, keri and jeff.. i have all that i could ever have wanted.. and i truely have to be the luckiest girl in the world to have all of that, and i love each and every single one of the people that support me and love me and stand by me, when i dont even want to stand by myself.. XOXOXOXO always and forever
Posted at 05:22 pm by Blondluv130
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004
hrmm... well life has definetly been interesting lately... sometimes good... others bad...
lets see.. school is not going so well, i think senior-itis came a bit sooner than expected but i dont want to do anything.. jeff tries to make me understand the importance of school and doing well... but i just dont give two flying fucks about it anymore... ive got alot of personal problems going on and alot of stress... with all that going on... college english IV with Wells is way to much to handle... guidance and all wants me to stay in there because they think it is my level and shit but no.. ok i can not handle that class and the work.. besides the fact that i dont like how wells teaches so that just makes everything worse.... idk.. ill go to guidance tomorrow
most of my others classes are fine.. im supposed to go back to gym tomorrow but i dun wanna.. yea i have a note that says i can decide whether i can do the activity or not, but i just dont want to be there at all... so im trying to figure all that out.. but everything else seems to be going well, esp my frees with savanna..lol
ok other then school... i had to go to court yesterday cuz i got caught with two people in the car... and they said i was speeding but i wasnt.. anyway $243 fine.. court was the most nerve racking thing in the world and i am so glad that its over with..
things between me and jeff are absolutely AMAZING... like.. so extremely perfect it seems like its all a dream.. i never knew i could feel this way about anybody.. i always used to be jealous of the girls with the boyfriends that treated them like princesses.. sending them flowers, writing them notes, doing little romantic things like that... well finally, i dont have to be jealous.. cause i have someone who does all that and more.. someone that loves me just as much as i love him, eventho i love him more ;) and its impossible to describe the feeling that i get when he kisses me or hugs me or tells me he loves me or sits in the drivers seat of my car so i cant leave him when its time for me to go... he is the most amazing guy in the whole entire world and he is so unbelievable perfect for me... really he is one thing that makes sense and one thing that makes me happy.. i always want to be with him and i never want to leave him... he is my everything and i love him more then anyone could ever imagine... ok im done with the mushy stuff..lol....
now for the angry part of my entry...
last year, i spent many days bending over backwards to help out a certain couple who were going through a rough time.. we'll just go ahead and call them, Jenn and Alan.. well anyways.. i would give my cell phone to jenn so she would have an oportunity to talk to alan since they were not allowed to talk... i would allow alan to stop at my house to drop stuff off for jenn cause they couldnt see eachother and i then took the stuff to jenn, never asking for anything in return... i would sit on the phone with jenn and comp with alan and tell them what the other said... when jenn ran away from home, she asked to stay at my house, but never actually needed it.. but when alan went to see jenn at school, i invited them to my house to allow them to see eachother in a place other then sitting in a car in some parking lot... i was considered jenn's "best friend" along with a fellow classmate.. and i was considered alan's "rock" because without me, their relationship would have failed... i even threw out 2 friendships, one of which was very important to me, because i defended jenn and alan.... i thought i was a pretty good friend, right?? well it turns out that now that jenn and alan are allowed to see eachother, im no longer either one of their friend... neither one of them talk to me, jenn walks right past me in the hall at school, i no longer have any communication with either of them.. simply because they dont need me anymore... and i find it funny... when jenn cheats on alan, someone that she "loves" so much, im sorry but u dont cheat on someone that u love and someone u want to spend the rest of ur life with... and i hope ur friends throw u aside when they're done with you, simply so u realize that they never considered u a friend and they were just kinda there for the benefits... i honestly dont give to fuckin shits about either of u anymore, u were only my friend when u need me, i hope no1 is there when u need them again, cause i sure as hell wont be... u are both pitiful excuses for human beings and u are a disgrace to the whole human race, its disgusting
now... for another certain bitch out there, we'll call "lee"... it was over a year and a half ago!! get the fuck over it already!! if everyone else sees that you are being immature about this then why dont you?? the dirty looks in the hall, the rolling of the eyes when i walk by, and the attitude u give to "friends" just because they talk to me and hang out with me in school... you think ur relationship is all that but its not, no1 envies it, they actually thinks its beginning to be pitiful but no1 will say it to ur face.. yea ur in love, fine whatever, but u can stop the gay ass middle school bullshit with me cause hunnie u dont want to start shit again... o yea and iif u cant forgive me for getting up and leaving u that one day in lunch.. then why did u go the par hillz vs hopatcong baseball game with me and omplain non-stop for 3 hours?? ur so full of shit.. u just want to mak exucuses so u dont have to realize that ur being a baby and immature.. hell even ur boyfriend, the "love of your life" thinks this is bullshit and that you have "too many deep seeded problems" so whatever, get over urself already u fuckin skank ass whore bitch!!!!!!
ok now that all i got that all off my chest im out...
I love Keri Ann
I love Jeffrey Martin
I love everyone else too!!!!
Posted at 04:20 pm by Blondluv130
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Monday, September 27, 2004
wow i havent updated this thing is so long.. anyways... life has not been all that great at all... ive been to school 4 days out of the first like 3 weeks... o well... long story that some of you know and if you dont... there's a reason for that...ummm.. no one even understands it... and bothers me when they try to fix it.. and even worse it bothers me when people say they understand when they dont.... people that are actually there for me like, Jeff and Keri and kinda Matt and Kyle but mostly Jeff and Keri....
Jeff is just so completely amazing... i could write forever just about him... he had stood by me and been there for me through everything.. he has supported me and encouraged me in a way no one else has... and besides that, he is just the most amazing boyfriend in the world.. like i went up there one day when we didnt have school.. and there were notes for me to follow... the first note went to peanut butter.. the scond note let to jelly... and then third note led to the dining room where there were peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with hearts cut into them and a candle in the middle of the table and milk in big wine glasses... (we consider ourselves peanut butter and jelly) and now we have a plan... lol.. we are going to get married and have two kids.. one boy and one girl and we are going to live in parsippany and our son is going to play football for the Vikings... lol... next week will be 4 months... his longest relationship and kinda mine too since matt and i were on and off so much... but yea... i really love him and he loves me right back which is just so amazing...
Keri is my Hopatcong Varsity football game buddy...lol... that way i can see jeff and keri can see a certain someone that sets her heart a thumping ;) haha I love that girl
other then that, nothing really going on... lots of stress and anxiety going on and its effecting my life and i dont want it too... god i hate being me... and jeff and my friends are the ONLY things that make me happy...
Posted at 03:52 pm by Blondluv130
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Friday, September 03, 2004
havent written in a while.....
wow i havent written in forever... i been real busytrying to spend as much time with jeff as possible before school starts in 3 days :( we got so spoiled over the summer that this sucks so much... i hate being away from him... grrr.. im still trying to find people who have classes with me this year... senior year.. o wow... im scared shitless but i think it will be a good year...like, gpa's freeze after 1st semester, prom, and all that other fun senior stuff... i just hope keri manages to get into my lunch since a certain person who shall remain nameless coughkylecough doesnt want to have lunch with me this year... hehe jk.. its gonna suck not having anything with him tho :( i better get a lot of notes!!!!!!!!! up until november, things are gonna suck cuz i really wont see jeff all that much, cept for weekends and if i go up for like 2 hours during the week.... so yea... im gonna miss the day care kids too :( man this is gonna suck.. summer went by waaaaay to fast and im not ready to see it go :'(
Posted at 04:46 pm by Blondluv130
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Saturday, August 07, 2004
today is my 2 month with jeff... things are so amazing and i couldnt be happier... jeff and his mom had an interesting convo in the car where she was saying how she really liked me but didnt want to get too attached in case me and him break up and he told her not to worry cause its not gonna happen cause "this ones different" awww... he told me about that but then his mom did too when i was over there yesterday hanging with the day care kids... they are so cute... i love them so much!!! so things are just PERFECT.. i love him so much.. ((not gonna write anymore cause i dont wanna get in trouble when certain bitches go and complain to him and then he gets mad that i write things that he says to me in private)) so anyway... today jeff is coming over and then we are prolly gonna go to the lil children's day thing in town and see my cousins in a parade and then maybe see kyle for our anniversary :) and then jeff and i are going to the movies to see prolly the notebook and then i might take him to the "romantic spot" that colleen showed me... something like that... idk... but im sooo happy :-D
Posted at 06:50 am by Blondluv130
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Thursday, August 05, 2004
ok well i got in trouble for my last entry cause apparently i need to get my facts straight... yea ok... well its my journal and i can write whatever the hell i want and i got my facts straight, nobody wants to hurt anyone thats why you think im wrong... so yea whatever.. fuckin slut ass bitch, if u dont like what i write, then dont read it ASHLEY... fuck off and make everyone happy
Posted at 11:28 pm by Blondluv130
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Wednesday, August 04, 2004
hrmmm lets see... nothing much really going on... hung with jeff today... he almost fell asleep on my lap till mikey came over with the water bottle...lol... ummm... lets see... i have a fan club... lol..so far jeff and erika are in it (erika is a girl that he works with.. shes really nice) umm.... thats about the extent of my new news...lol... this saturday jeff and i are going to the movies, just the two of us, which really doesnt happen at all, so im happy, it should be fun..im making him go see the notebook with me..lol... $20 says he cries!!! cause saturday is our two month :) i love him so much... ok now im getting corny and mushy so moving on...
its interesting... when someone you thought you could trust, someone you considered your absolute best friend, someone you considered a sister... could go, and do anything possible to hurt you... just because they have feelings for your boyfriend... n then they make a big deal outta shit and say that they arent gonna talk to your boyfriend cause all they do when they talk is fight... well isnt there a reason for that?? if everytime they talk its always your ex-best telling him she loves him and "sees them getting together in the future" but then when this person shows up at your boyfriends work and talks to him when he really doesnt want to talk to her cause he really wants nothing to do with her and tries to make him jealous when it doesnt work cause you and your boyfriend have an absolutely perfect relationship... your ex-best then insists on a hug, ok... but maybe ur ex-best needs to stay the fuck away from you and your boyfriend cause things are amazing without her in your lives... things are better.. and even your boyfriends friends and co-workers like you better then her... dont ya think she would get the hint already? dumby... he doesnt love her anymore, doesnt even like her, so why is she still around??
anyways... a similar situation happened over a year ago, except i am the ex-best... i talked to keri about that... and i just wanted to make it clear that it was a mistake to date shawn, it was a mistake to ever get involved with him in any way shape or form other then the friendship we had... it was a mistake to have ppl lose trust in me and it was a mistake to hurt someone like i did... the end of sophmore year was just a mistake in general.............................
[Picture It] your swimming in a pool at night, there is a full moon and a light that slightly lights up the water... friends leave for a minute and you are alone with that special someone... theres silence... and you then have the slowest and most passionate kiss ever as you dance around in the water.. friends return so you stop, but as you look over at your love, they smile, and you get butterflies adn you are left speechless......I Love You Jeff
Posted at 06:53 pm by Blondluv130
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*Name* Jessica
*Location* Parsippany...always and 4eva a Hopatcong girl
*Occuptation* Senior at PHHS ~Class of 2005~
*Statz* Head Over Heals In Love w/ Jeff *6-7-04*
I am a typical teenage girl who likes to listen to music, talk on the fone, and watch tv. I have blond hair, blue eyes and I'm about 5'3". I love romance: roses, poems, candles...all of it..lol.
I live for my time spent with my friends, love you all sooo much!!
*KeriAnn *Jeff *Christine *Megan *Matt *Jay *Mike *Kyle *Rich *Cassie
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