hrmm... well life has definetly been interesting lately... sometimes good... others bad...
lets see.. school is not going so well, i think senior-itis came a bit sooner than expected but i dont want to do anything.. jeff tries to make me understand the importance of school and doing well... but i just dont give two flying fucks about it anymore... ive got alot of personal problems going on and alot of stress... with all that going on... college english IV with Wells is way to much to handle... guidance and all wants me to stay in there because they think it is my level and shit but no.. ok i can not handle that class and the work.. besides the fact that i dont like how wells teaches so that just makes everything worse.... idk.. ill go to guidance tomorrow
most of my others classes are fine.. im supposed to go back to gym tomorrow but i dun wanna.. yea i have a note that says i can decide whether i can do the activity or not, but i just dont want to be there at all... so im trying to figure all that out.. but everything else seems to be going well, esp my frees with savanna..lol
ok other then school... i had to go to court yesterday cuz i got caught with two people in the car... and they said i was speeding but i wasnt.. anyway $243 fine.. court was the most nerve racking thing in the world and i am so glad that its over with..
things between me and jeff are absolutely AMAZING... like.. so extremely perfect it seems like its all a dream.. i never knew i could feel this way about anybody.. i always used to be jealous of the girls with the boyfriends that treated them like princesses.. sending them flowers, writing them notes, doing little romantic things like that... well finally, i dont have to be jealous.. cause i have someone who does all that and more.. someone that loves me just as much as i love him, eventho i love him more ;) and its impossible to describe the feeling that i get when he kisses me or hugs me or tells me he loves me or sits in the drivers seat of my car so i cant leave him when its time for me to go... he is the most amazing guy in the whole entire world and he is so unbelievable perfect for me... really he is one thing that makes sense and one thing that makes me happy.. i always want to be with him and i never want to leave him... he is my everything and i love him more then anyone could ever imagine... ok im done with the mushy stuff..lol....
now for the angry part of my entry...
last year, i spent many days bending over backwards to help out a certain couple who were going through a rough time.. we'll just go ahead and call them, Jenn and Alan.. well anyways.. i would give my cell phone to jenn so she would have an oportunity to talk to alan since they were not allowed to talk... i would allow alan to stop at my house to drop stuff off for jenn cause they couldnt see eachother and i then took the stuff to jenn, never asking for anything in return... i would sit on the phone with jenn and comp with alan and tell them what the other said... when jenn ran away from home, she asked to stay at my house, but never actually needed it.. but when alan went to see jenn at school, i invited them to my house to allow them to see eachother in a place other then sitting in a car in some parking lot... i was considered jenn's "best friend" along with a fellow classmate.. and i was considered alan's "rock" because without me, their relationship would have failed... i even threw out 2 friendships, one of which was very important to me, because i defended jenn and alan.... i thought i was a pretty good friend, right?? well it turns out that now that jenn and alan are allowed to see eachother, im no longer either one of their friend... neither one of them talk to me, jenn walks right past me in the hall at school, i no longer have any communication with either of them.. simply because they dont need me anymore... and i find it funny... when jenn cheats on alan, someone that she "loves" so much, im sorry but u dont cheat on someone that u love and someone u want to spend the rest of ur life with... and i hope ur friends throw u aside when they're done with you, simply so u realize that they never considered u a friend and they were just kinda there for the benefits... i honestly dont give to fuckin shits about either of u anymore, u were only my friend when u need me, i hope no1 is there when u need them again, cause i sure as hell wont be... u are both pitiful excuses for human beings and u are a disgrace to the whole human race, its disgusting
now... for another certain bitch out there, we'll call "lee"... it was over a year and a half ago!! get the fuck over it already!! if everyone else sees that you are being immature about this then why dont you?? the dirty looks in the hall, the rolling of the eyes when i walk by, and the attitude u give to "friends" just because they talk to me and hang out with me in school... you think ur relationship is all that but its not, no1 envies it, they actually thinks its beginning to be pitiful but no1 will say it to ur face.. yea ur in love, fine whatever, but u can stop the gay ass middle school bullshit with me cause hunnie u dont want to start shit again... o yea and iif u cant forgive me for getting up and leaving u that one day in lunch.. then why did u go the par hillz vs hopatcong baseball game with me and omplain non-stop for 3 hours?? ur so full of shit.. u just want to mak exucuses so u dont have to realize that ur being a baby and immature.. hell even ur boyfriend, the "love of your life" thinks this is bullshit and that you have "too many deep seeded problems" so whatever, get over urself already u fuckin skank ass whore bitch!!!!!!
ok now that all i got that all off my chest im out...
I love Keri Ann
I love Jeffrey Martin
I love everyone else too!!!!
Posted at 04:20 pm by Blondluv130
