hrmmm lets see... nothing much really going on... hung with jeff today... he almost fell asleep on my lap till mikey came over with the water bottle...lol... ummm... lets see... i have a fan club... lol..so far jeff and erika are in it (erika is a girl that he works with.. shes really nice) umm.... thats about the extent of my new news...lol... this saturday jeff and i are going to the movies, just the two of us, which really doesnt happen at all, so im happy, it should be fun..im making him go see the notebook with me..lol... $20 says he cries!!! cause saturday is our two month :) i love him so much... ok now im getting corny and mushy so moving on...

its interesting... when someone you thought you could trust, someone you considered your absolute best friend, someone you considered a sister... could go, and do anything possible to hurt you... just because they have feelings for your boyfriend... n then they make a big deal outta shit and say that they arent gonna talk to your boyfriend cause all they do when they talk is fight... well isnt there a reason for that?? if everytime they talk its always your ex-best telling him she loves him and "sees them getting together in the future" but then when this person shows up at your boyfriends work and talks to him when he really doesnt want to talk to her cause he really wants nothing to do with her and tries to make him jealous when it doesnt work cause you and your boyfriend have an absolutely perfect relationship... your ex-best then insists on a hug, ok... but maybe ur ex-best needs to stay the fuck away from you and your boyfriend cause things are amazing without her in your lives... things are better.. and even your boyfriends friends and co-workers like you better then her... dont ya think she would get the hint already? dumby... he doesnt love her anymore, doesnt even like her, so why is she still around??

anyways... a similar situation happened over a year ago, except i am the ex-best... i talked to keri about that... and i just wanted to make it clear that it was a mistake to date shawn, it was a mistake to ever get involved with him in any way shape or form other then the friendship we had... it was a mistake to have ppl lose trust in me and it was a mistake to hurt someone like i did... the end of sophmore year was just a mistake in general.............................

[Picture It] your swimming in a pool at night, there is a full moon and a light that slightly lights up the water... friends leave for a minute and you are alone with that special someone... theres silence... and you then have the slowest and most passionate kiss ever as you dance around in the water.. friends return so you stop, but as you look over at your love, they smile, and you get butterflies adn you are left speechless......I Love You Jeff