wow i havent updated this thing is so long.. anyways... life has not been all that great at all... ive been to school 4 days out of the first like 3 weeks... o well... long story that some of you know and if you dont... there's a reason for that...ummm.. no one even understands it... and bothers me when they try to fix it.. and even worse it bothers me when people say they understand when they dont.... people that are actually there for me like, Jeff and Keri and kinda Matt and Kyle but mostly Jeff and Keri....

Jeff is just so completely amazing... i could write forever just about him... he had stood by me and been there for me through everything.. he has supported me and encouraged me in a way no one else has... and besides that, he is just the most amazing boyfriend in the world.. like i went up there one day when we didnt have school.. and there were notes for me to follow... the first note went to peanut butter.. the scond note let to jelly... and then third note led to the dining room where there were peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with hearts cut into them and a candle in the middle of the table and milk in big wine glasses... (we consider ourselves peanut butter and jelly) and now we have a plan... lol.. we are going to get married and have two kids.. one boy and one girl and we are going to live in parsippany and our son is going to play football for the Vikings... lol... next week will be 4 months... his longest relationship and kinda mine too since matt and i were on and off so much... but yea... i really love him and he loves me right back which is just so amazing...

Keri is my Hopatcong Varsity football game buddy...lol... that way i can see jeff and keri can see a certain someone that sets her heart a thumping ;) haha I love that girl

other then that, nothing really going on... lots of stress and anxiety going on and its effecting my life and i dont want it too... god i hate being me... and jeff and my friends are the ONLY things that make me happy...